God is unfathomable and infamous. He is mysterious and mighty. How can a God so big and powerful love a small girl like me? Sometimes I do not understand the affection that God has for me. It has been easy for me to think that God doesn't love me as much as He loves others, but that is a lie! God knows me personally. He knows every freckle on my face and the number of hairs on my head. Just because God is the King of the universe does not mean He doesn't have time to spend with me. Our God is a personal God and loves to spend time with His children.
India is such a dark and oppressed place and it's not always easy to feel God's presence. It is easy to feel alone. I constantly have to remind myself that just because I cannot feel God does not mean He isn't there. I have to remember that God wants to be with me. It is not a matter of feeling God, it is a matter acknowledging that God never leaves your side. I am so thankful for how faithful and loving He is.
Last night I was up late working on an administrative project. Although I was not looking to feel God's presence, He decided to show up. He reminded me that He loves me and will never leave me alone. He will shelter me from the rain and hold me through the storm. He will never let me go. God reminded me that the definition of His name is love. He is not a big scary God who wants to make my life a hot mess, He is a loving god who is here to hold me and keep me safe from the confusion of this world.
"But the Lord is faithful; He will strengthen you and guard you from evil… May the Lord lead your hearts into a full understanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ."
2 Thessalonians 3:3-5
