We have about a month and a half left here in India. We are all in awe of how quickly the time has gone by. But last night at feedback I had a bit of a revelation. It was a kind of what am I doing here moment. Not why did I come to India, that much I know: God called me here. But it was more of what am I accomplishing here. When I leave will I leave knowing I did something. Or will I leave with regrets; should I have loved on the kids more, spent more time with them. Should I have had a better attitude during certain tasks.
Last week we lost Yemima, she was only 5 years old. Three separate infections wrecked havoc on her little body. When I found out she had passed I was upset with myself that I hadn’t spent more time loving on her while she was with us. And I know there are 80+ kids here but they are all equally deserving of my attention. I know that she is dancing and singing with Jesus, something her body just couldn’t do here on earth. And for that I praise God that she is no longer suffering.
Yemima taught me in important lesson; everyone deserves to be loved TODAY. There may not be a tomorrow or a next week or a next year. I have been so consumed with what is to come when I get back to the United States I haven’t been focusing on the gift God has given me today. I love children and God has placed before me 80+ children who just want to be loved on. They want to be held and hugged and played with and told they are loved.
So what am I doing here?
I’m showing the love that Christ first showed me.
